Same shit.. different day

Last post was about resolutions. How are they going? EH. I have been thinking a lot lately which is seldom wise in my opinion as it leads to doubts and thinking about one's life a little too much. Everywhere I look it seems that everyone is doing better than I am. Is this the grass is always greener effect? Maybe. Quarter Life crisis? Maybe. I just think that for someone who has always called herself an overachiever I haven't achieved much by this point. I mean if I sit down and look at what I have actually done so far it seems I have done pretty well but there is always someone out there who is one upping me. And no me gusta. Yes I am very competitive but not to the point that I am jealous at others for their success but I feel as of late I might be.  So what has cause such disappointments you say. To be honest the fact that I still have to land a career in my field of choice is number one. Don't even get me started on my relationship status cause it will only make me bitter. I was just watching something on t.v a few minutes ago I think it was pop up video and apparently some psychologist was saying that people who are constantly happy all the time, have mental issues because they do not understand life fully and its complexity.  I know that is kinda deep for pop up video, random fact, it was associated with the song don't worry, be happy. Well I am trying not to worry but it's been really hard. I vowed, well let's rephrase to I told myself that this year would be different but so far nothing, nada, zip, zilch. I am trying to take it one step at a time but I want me some instant gratification for once. Is that too much to ask for?  I just sound like I am complaining and yes I am.  But I have also noticed that I only like to write and share my thoughts through blog when I am not happy, same thing about my poetry. I find it in a way liberating.  I doubt anyone is reading this. If you are thank you. I am sorry if I am bringing you down. Even my blog is not as cool as the ones I see out there. See going back to some self loathing. No good.  Well I will try to go back to my old positive self because it is true there is always someone out there that has it worst than you do. For those of you who read this can someone enlighten me why I cannot find a freaking job as a junior copywriter. Point me out my flaws I need some tough love. I promise I won't hold it against you I am a firm believer in no sugar coating and tough love. Well this will be all I think. Let's turn this shit around.....